Shy…

sometimes I really hate being shy…it sucks when you’re trying to talk to boys. Sometimes I really don’t know if its that I’m shy or if it is something else entirely. I am reluctant to make the first move a lot of the time, out of fear of rejection. That leads me to appear shy and reserved I guess, when, in actuality there is nothing shy or reserved about me. I’ve just been hurt in the past and don’t want to deal with the rejection again, so I prefer to let the guys make the first move…so I know they’re interested in me. I think that has led to me missing some opportunities though. There are boys I’m interested in knowing more about now, but I won’t risk it. We’re friends and I don’t want to risk it…because I don’t know if the overtures are friendship or that he wants more. I don’t know if I’m interpreting the signs and signals wrong or not. Then there’s another boy that I don’t know that well, but have been learning more and more and still want to know more on top of what I know but I’m afraid he doesn’t see me like that…when all I really want to do is ask him on a date…I look forward to seeing him when I get to and don’t want that to change…so I don’t act. Both are younger than me…which I think leads to my not acting either…so I can’t come off as the old fool…so I just come off as shy I guess…

here’s the brown N2N Bodywear briefs I’ve had on all day…