It is amazing how the slightest little suggestion can sometimes get my mind racing. It’s amazing how my mind works sometimes and what I do. Sometimes a suggestion is all it will take from the right person and I’ll drop my pants and snap a picture anywhere. I’ll wear skimpy see through underwear. Sometimes a comment will be made that I look good and I can live on that for a while. Sometimes a comment will be made about not looking thin or looking fat and I cling to that forever. My mind holds onto things forever – no really, for ever. That line from Beaches that Bette Midler utters, “My memory is long…my memory is very, very long.” That’s me. I hold onto little facts and tidbits of information. I hold onto highs and lows…ups and downs, joys and hurts. It takes a while for me to let go of things. I’m getting much better about it though. I don’t hold onto the feelings as much anymore…not much I can do about the useless information. As for the hottie that keeps suggesting things to me or spurring me on – keep em coming (you know who you are).
If ever a pair of underwear were to describe me, almost perfectly, these would be it. They’re my Dirty Fukker briefs, London Punk. All kinds of references to London (we all know how I feel about that) and they are a really comfortable pair of briefs. I wish that they were a little skimpier and lower cut briefs, but they are comfortable and I love them. I was feeling a bit blah today and wanted a constant reminder of something I love – London definitely does that trick. And, truth be told, I was a dirty fukker today and kept looking at hottie’s pictures through the day and thinking about what he might suggest next or just how much I enjoyed snapping the pics for him…oh well…confessions…I’ve learned to not hold on to those forever now too! It’s out in the open now.
