It has been been difficult finding an angle with which to take to write this introduction as to who I am and why I am involved in this project. Fitness in my mind in closely tied to my own happiness and health. It is a simple word that encompasses a complicated and fast array of topics; so many that often times I am lost in regards to what it means to be ‘fit’.
Simple desires for me include gaining weight with muscle, improving posture and flexibility, clearer skin tone, a balanced flow of energy through my body, sense of calm and content within my own skin, and a rested body that functions in a healthy manner.
I am underweight and have been my whole life. It is a result of life choices combined with how my body functions. A high metabolism combined with a single life in NYC and a hunger for night life at that, a red bull addiction, work-a-holic demeanor with a schedule that includes flipping back and fourth between day and night shifts, and occasional bouts of insomnia all contribute to the physique and attitude on life I have.
I can honestly say that there is not a day that goes by that I am not comparing myself to someone else I see on the street or know in my life. I’d like to think that everyone suffers from that anxiety of needlessly matching themselves up to others if only to feel less alienated in that aspect of my daily routine.
This is where the question of fitness comes into play. I want to feel like I am enough. That all I need and all I want is already inside me. The success of gaining a more fit state depends on the use of my self knowledge, smart choices, commitment to a routine, and, most importantly, a unflinching LOVE for myself and who I am.
I do ‘like’ who I am and what I have on offer for others that are in my life but, I know there is more inside that wants to flourish. There are parts of who I am I haven’t cultivated because I have thought I wasn’t worth it or was told by the outside world I can’t have it. I want those lies to go away.
I want to fully realize the potential of who I am!
I want be able to take off my clothes and show off in a way that doesn’t feel like shock tactic dressed in sexy briefs but rather have an outward energy and physique that is sexy naturally and the underwear is just icing on the cake. The showing off would become less of a defensive tactic to keep from being fully vulnerable to others and instead grow to be an open expression of myself, my love of myself, and my desire to share that love with others.
That magic and wonderful boy inside me is ready to come out and it’s time for him to have that chance to play. This is where I am starting. What happens next remains to be created, seen, and shared. So here we go!
More to cum. -DJ Bakelite
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Hey bud I wish you all the best in this challenge. I totally relate to a lot that you say and feel about yourself and have fought a lot of the same battles. I feel like I have overcome a lot of them…but there are days where my confidence sinks. Just want to let you know I support you and if you need anything let me know! D
We’ve all been there! Come work out with me one of these days…or we can work out in the park and run…I know you like to put those running tights on!